This post is heavy on the quotes. If you don't want to read them all, that's ok. I'm posting mainly for myself this time
If you have ever been pregnant, then you know that pregnancy, childbirth, and babies are pretty much all you can think about for nine months.
The farther along you get, the more true this is.
Here are a few things on my mind as my due date gets closer and closer.
“Remember this, for it is as true and true gets: Your body is not a lemon. You are not a machine. The Creator is not a careless mechanic. Human female bodies have the same potential to give birth well as aardvarks, lions, rhinoceri, elephants, moose, and water buffalo. Even if it has not been your habit throughout your life so far, I recommend that you learn to think positively about your body.”
-Ina May Gaskin
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Phil 4:13)
"Women's bodies have near-perfect knowledge of childbirth; it's when their brains get involved that things can go wrong."
PEGGY VINCENT, Baby Catcher
"I always knew I was meant to do something really BIG in life, and now I know that this was it. Screw winning an Academy Award someday ... I GAVE BIRTH!"
JENNY MCCARTHY, Belly Laughs
“There is no other organ quite like the uterus. If men had such an organ they would brag about it. So should we”
-Ina May Gaskin
"The knowledge of how to give birth without outside interventions lies deep within each woman. Successful childbirth depends on an acceptance of the process."
"The pains of childbirth were altogether different from the enveloping effects of other kinds of pain. These were pains one could follow with one’s mind."
“It is important to keep in mind that our bodies must work pretty well, or there wouldn't be so many humans on the planet.”
―Ina May Gaskin
"If I had my life to live over, instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle."
"Just as a woman's heart knows how and when to pump, her lungs to inhale, and her hand to pull back from fire, so she knows when and how to give birth."
Virginia Di Orio
"300,000 women will be giving birth with you today. Relax and breathe and do nothing else.
Labor is hard work, it hurts, and you can do it."
"There are three things that are givens about labour: It's hard work, it hurts a lot, and you can do it."
I'm sliding in here with a late-in-the-day 39 week post!
We went to the doctor yesterday and have another appointment scheduled for next Tuesday, May 8.
I wonder if we will go to that one...?
In my last several posts about pregnancy I kept saying "any day now," but I didn't really mean it. I think I just meant that if he had come at that point it would have been 100% ok.
I still really don't feel like "any day." I personally feel like nothing will happen until Monday at the earliest. That's not to say I'm not paying attention to every little cramp and ache. ;)
The fact that I will very soon have a tiny little baby that we made and that we will be completely in charge of still does not seem real. I don't think it will until his squirmy, wet body is placed in my arms.
I keep trying to picture that moment, but I can't quite bring it into focus.
Anyone that knows me personally is probably aware that more than anything (right after having a healthy baby) I want to have a natural delivery. It is pretty obvious that my doctor is very pro-induction. Which, why wouldn't he be!? There is no guessing, no middle of the night, he can fit it right into his schedule.
However, I reeeeally want to go into labor naturally too.
I want God and Logan to decide, "Ok, it's birthday!"
(and I want to avoid those pitocin contractions! C'mon, let's give a first-timer a chance here!)
At our appointment yesterday I asked ol Doc Fuller how long he would let a woman go past her due date before she would have to be induced. He twisted his face around and said only a few days! Then launched into a speech about placentas and due dates.
He wanted to set a tentative induction date, for just in case. Which I was fine with.
Until he picked the 10th.
Um, excuse me?
Can I have a little bit of time here???
At first I didn't say anything, I just sat there under my thin white sheet thinking, I better get something going soon, eh?
But as we were standing waiting to make our next appointment, he walked up and I made myself so proud!
I actually asked if we could push it back a few days!
And since the 10th was on a Thursday, and Mondays are his surgery days, it got pushed all the way to the 15th! So, surely he will decide to come before then.
I don't think of myself as much of a boat-rocker, so standing up to my doctor about what I wanted felt really amazing. It also helped that I was a) actually standing up and b) fully clothed.
So no matter what, in two weeks our little man will be here.